Hey Buddy!
Merry Christmas to you, Grandma, and Silvie! You all are celebrating Christmas in heaven this year and that makes me so happy. I know that you guys are having the time of your lives up there. I can't help but think what you guys are up to in heaven and how they celebrate Christmas. Jesus I know is making it extra special up there. Do you have pasta, Gram's broccoli and noodles (to die for), cookies, and since it is a special occasion- mama says you can have a sip of wine. Only a sip and don't tell daddy!
I am sorry Frankie that I didn't come to visit you today. I try to stay strong for everyone in the family every other day. But today I can't. I am so sad that you are not here with us. I wanted this holiday season to be different because you are supposed to be here with us. I guess I will give heaven the cutest, most amazing, playful, and strong boy. Did I mention you are the cutest baby on the face of this earth? I tell you that every single day.
For Christmas we received so many gifts that have meaning of you. A key chain for Daddy and a Pandora charm for mommy that has you sweet face on it . I will wear it every day and smile and think of you. Love you so much my pretty angel! Everyone LOVED your gift to them. It was so special and was a hit, just like you! Such a short time you were with us but the memories your footprints made will be with many people forever.
Mommy wanted to thank you for the gift that you got me, wink wink. No amount of money would be able to give me that but you did. I feel so very blessed to have met you baby. It means so much to me and I have never been more excited for something in my life. Mommy is doing great and I know you are ok because I feel like that was a sign from you to tell me that you are ok. Thank you so very much sweet boy.
I want you to know that even though you are not here with us, I have been thinking about you non stop the past few days. If Frankie was here, we would be doing ______. Examples- taking pictures in your cute as hell Christmas clothes, Nona and Papa snuggles, playing on the carpet over Nana and Tata's with your cousins, going with us to look at lights and hearing you laugh in the back seat. If you were lucky enough to ride in the car with us, I would sit in the back seat with you and point all the lights out to you and explain things. Or lets be real and say I would drive and Daddy would be in the back seat with you. If we let him drive Frankie, we would never ever make it home :)
Love you so much Frank P. Cirillo IV. I am sorry that I didn't come today but will you know that I am spending this entire day on the couch thinking about you. Mom and Dad love you so much and thank you for giving us the best gift ever- 6 days with the best thing that has ever happened to us. Love you~
Mommy
Marriage, infant loss, family
Tuesday, December 25, 2012
Sunday, December 16, 2012
Letter 10
Frankie,
It is your form of "witching hour" here at home as dad calls it! I was thinking about you as I usually am around this time of the morning and I actually enjoy coming down to a quiet living room to write you a letter. Dad doesn't like me getting out of bed but I think it is my one thing I enjoy on Sunday mornings because I sleep in.
What is new here with us... We had a busy week at work. I have been having a crazy time at work. Then the weekends have been nuts here. We would be taking you to so many parties and I know people would just love you to pieces! Tomorrow I am going to go Christmas shopping for dad. We have some great ideas for him this year. Don't worry, I will have the perfect little gift for him from you. Mom has been feeling better and I think my body has been resetting itself to prepare for you to be a big brother.
The main reason that I wanted to write to you tonight is because we have a baby Brady who is out there really sick. He had a lot of problems that you had when you were born and he is going to have surgery to fix it on Monday. Can you please keep an extra close eye on Brady for me? Thanks buddy, we really appreciate all of your hard work. All of your August cousins are feeling better and you have been doing so wonderful with that!
Love you buddy! We will be seeing you in a few short hours. This is the best part of the week for Mommy and Daddy every week. Get some sleep and see you soon!
Mom
It is your form of "witching hour" here at home as dad calls it! I was thinking about you as I usually am around this time of the morning and I actually enjoy coming down to a quiet living room to write you a letter. Dad doesn't like me getting out of bed but I think it is my one thing I enjoy on Sunday mornings because I sleep in.
What is new here with us... We had a busy week at work. I have been having a crazy time at work. Then the weekends have been nuts here. We would be taking you to so many parties and I know people would just love you to pieces! Tomorrow I am going to go Christmas shopping for dad. We have some great ideas for him this year. Don't worry, I will have the perfect little gift for him from you. Mom has been feeling better and I think my body has been resetting itself to prepare for you to be a big brother.
The main reason that I wanted to write to you tonight is because we have a baby Brady who is out there really sick. He had a lot of problems that you had when you were born and he is going to have surgery to fix it on Monday. Can you please keep an extra close eye on Brady for me? Thanks buddy, we really appreciate all of your hard work. All of your August cousins are feeling better and you have been doing so wonderful with that!
Love you buddy! We will be seeing you in a few short hours. This is the best part of the week for Mommy and Daddy every week. Get some sleep and see you soon!
Mom
Tuesday, December 11, 2012
Letter 9
12/11/12
Frankie P.!!
How is my favorite little guy doing? The few nurses we really liked in the NICU called you Frankie P and I just randomly thought of it tonight. Are you staying warm, winter is here and it has been getting really cold. Life is good but would better with you here buddy.
Mom and Dad have been up to business as usual, can I tell you what we have been up to? First, lots of people have been asking about you at work and I tell them about my angel and my face lights up every single time. On Saturday, we went Christmas shopping for everyone. We bought Nona and Papa gifts, Aunt Manda/ Uncle JJ, Nana and Tata, cousins- Vi, Vince, Casey, and Tyler, Uncle Brian and Aunt Mo, and a few odds and ends. It was fun and we found a few things I would have bought for you. Cute as hell (CAH as dad says) clothes and toys that would be perfect for you. We did a great job and got most of our shopping done.
I have been getting lots of gifts from your August Aunts and cousins. They are so perfect and I love coming home every night to a gift. I have some pretty angels for a shelf in the nursery, ornaments for the tree, jewelery, snacks, and fun things for Mom and Dad. What a great group of ladies I have there. They rock something fierce! All of the gifts have one common theme involved, they all remind me of you!
I know you have been really busy lately and I know i told you on Sunday but thank you for watching over all the sick babies. There has been so many of them and I know you have to be working some overtime to get it all done. Thank you for that and their mommies are so appreciative of angel Frankie. I hope you are able to take time away from monitoring up there to read this new letter.
Last week you went on a date with mommy and her other August Aunts and cousins. You met baby Hope, Baby Mason, Baby Noah, and Baby Roo and you hung out again. You met Aunt Kendra, Aunt Eva, Aunt Deanna, and Aunt Ashley. It was so much fun and we had such a great time! I have a cute picture to go along with it that I want to share with you here.
Lots of people are thinking of you here. Nana and Tata have your name engraved under the St. Peter statue in the basement at the church. We are going to go with them and check it out soon and I will post a picture for you to see. See how special you are! Everyone loves Frankie so very much!
I love you Frankie P! Miss you so much and think about you ummmm about every 3 minutes (no kidding there, all truth)! Love you and tell Grandma hello and thank you from Mom and Dad. Also thanks again for all of your hard work this week, we all appreciate it!
Mommy
Frankie P.!!
How is my favorite little guy doing? The few nurses we really liked in the NICU called you Frankie P and I just randomly thought of it tonight. Are you staying warm, winter is here and it has been getting really cold. Life is good but would better with you here buddy.
Mom and Dad have been up to business as usual, can I tell you what we have been up to? First, lots of people have been asking about you at work and I tell them about my angel and my face lights up every single time. On Saturday, we went Christmas shopping for everyone. We bought Nona and Papa gifts, Aunt Manda/ Uncle JJ, Nana and Tata, cousins- Vi, Vince, Casey, and Tyler, Uncle Brian and Aunt Mo, and a few odds and ends. It was fun and we found a few things I would have bought for you. Cute as hell (CAH as dad says) clothes and toys that would be perfect for you. We did a great job and got most of our shopping done.
I have been getting lots of gifts from your August Aunts and cousins. They are so perfect and I love coming home every night to a gift. I have some pretty angels for a shelf in the nursery, ornaments for the tree, jewelery, snacks, and fun things for Mom and Dad. What a great group of ladies I have there. They rock something fierce! All of the gifts have one common theme involved, they all remind me of you!
I know you have been really busy lately and I know i told you on Sunday but thank you for watching over all the sick babies. There has been so many of them and I know you have to be working some overtime to get it all done. Thank you for that and their mommies are so appreciative of angel Frankie. I hope you are able to take time away from monitoring up there to read this new letter.
Last week you went on a date with mommy and her other August Aunts and cousins. You met baby Hope, Baby Mason, Baby Noah, and Baby Roo and you hung out again. You met Aunt Kendra, Aunt Eva, Aunt Deanna, and Aunt Ashley. It was so much fun and we had such a great time! I have a cute picture to go along with it that I want to share with you here.
Lots of people are thinking of you here. Nana and Tata have your name engraved under the St. Peter statue in the basement at the church. We are going to go with them and check it out soon and I will post a picture for you to see. See how special you are! Everyone loves Frankie so very much!
I love you Frankie P! Miss you so much and think about you ummmm about every 3 minutes (no kidding there, all truth)! Love you and tell Grandma hello and thank you from Mom and Dad. Also thanks again for all of your hard work this week, we all appreciate it!
Mommy
Sunday, December 2, 2012
Letter 8
Hi Pal,
How are you? We miss you so much and I have been thinking about you a ton with the holidays coming and all. I think about all the cute little clothes I would be dressing you in, the great pictures I would be snapping of you, and going through your first Christmas here in my arms. Even though you are not here, I still allow myself to be able to experience all of these things. In our minds, you want to be here with us and I don't stop allowing myself to enjoy things just because you are not here for us to celebrate with you.
We had the best weekend last weekend with Nona and Papa, Nana and Tata, and all of your aunts and uncles. They loved your little picture that we have up of you on the back wall. I hope you don't mind but as I am receiving gifts from my August friends and moms, I am sending them a picture of you to put up for their baby. That way you are able to watch over them and keep them safe. You are everywhere right now and so many people keep telling me what an adorable baby you are! The best line that we keep saying is "he is the best parts of me and the best parts of Frank to make one beautiful baby"! I look at your picture and say yes you are so right each time I hear this and that is at least 3 times a week from someone else I want you to know!
We took Christmas pictures a few weeks ago. I am going to be mailing them out this week. I hope everyone loves them! We found the cutest way to incorporate you into the pictures! Once they are all mailed out, I will post the pictures on here so you can see. You are toots adorbs buddy!!
Daddy had the best birthday weekend. He even loved the gift that you got him today. It was perfect and I made him wait in the car while I got everything situated. He walked up and loved it! I am going to include the pictures below. We went to see his movie yesterday (James Bond), went to the bookstore to buy books, and then went out to dinner at Magiannos with Aunt Manda and Uncle JJ. We had so much fun! Your cute cousins Violet, Vince, and Casey sang into the phone happy birthday to Daddy. Cutest message to listen to E.V.E.R.! It melted his heart and mine too. We love those kids so much! Today I put out the rest of the Christmas decorations. We got a new tree, it is so pretty! I even have a few ornaments on the tree that my August moms sent me for you! I am including a picture for you to see!
I will tell you about it soon when I go upstairs to say goodnight to you but Mommy and Nona are having the same dreams. It is so cool but the same dreams about your future sibling(s). I can't begin to tell you how happy these dreams make me!
This week nothing really too exciting happening. For us, no news is good news! Daddy is feeling much better and Mommy saw the new Dr and specialist last week to get my body fixed up. On Tuesday, you are going to meet some new friends from the August group. Are you soooo excited? Mom can't wait and I am sure you can't either! The Christmas parties are starting this coming weekend and I am sure everyone will be telling us how great you are!
We love you so much! Miss you more then you know. We are sending you kisses and snuggles. Love you to the moon and back!
Mommy and Daddy
Our new tree! Soooo pretty!
Happy Birthday Daddy!
Close up of the sign we made Daddy!
Mommy's letter she wrote you for the balloon event.
The most festive one around! We love it!
How are you? We miss you so much and I have been thinking about you a ton with the holidays coming and all. I think about all the cute little clothes I would be dressing you in, the great pictures I would be snapping of you, and going through your first Christmas here in my arms. Even though you are not here, I still allow myself to be able to experience all of these things. In our minds, you want to be here with us and I don't stop allowing myself to enjoy things just because you are not here for us to celebrate with you.
We had the best weekend last weekend with Nona and Papa, Nana and Tata, and all of your aunts and uncles. They loved your little picture that we have up of you on the back wall. I hope you don't mind but as I am receiving gifts from my August friends and moms, I am sending them a picture of you to put up for their baby. That way you are able to watch over them and keep them safe. You are everywhere right now and so many people keep telling me what an adorable baby you are! The best line that we keep saying is "he is the best parts of me and the best parts of Frank to make one beautiful baby"! I look at your picture and say yes you are so right each time I hear this and that is at least 3 times a week from someone else I want you to know!
We took Christmas pictures a few weeks ago. I am going to be mailing them out this week. I hope everyone loves them! We found the cutest way to incorporate you into the pictures! Once they are all mailed out, I will post the pictures on here so you can see. You are toots adorbs buddy!!
Daddy had the best birthday weekend. He even loved the gift that you got him today. It was perfect and I made him wait in the car while I got everything situated. He walked up and loved it! I am going to include the pictures below. We went to see his movie yesterday (James Bond), went to the bookstore to buy books, and then went out to dinner at Magiannos with Aunt Manda and Uncle JJ. We had so much fun! Your cute cousins Violet, Vince, and Casey sang into the phone happy birthday to Daddy. Cutest message to listen to E.V.E.R.! It melted his heart and mine too. We love those kids so much! Today I put out the rest of the Christmas decorations. We got a new tree, it is so pretty! I even have a few ornaments on the tree that my August moms sent me for you! I am including a picture for you to see!
I will tell you about it soon when I go upstairs to say goodnight to you but Mommy and Nona are having the same dreams. It is so cool but the same dreams about your future sibling(s). I can't begin to tell you how happy these dreams make me!
This week nothing really too exciting happening. For us, no news is good news! Daddy is feeling much better and Mommy saw the new Dr and specialist last week to get my body fixed up. On Tuesday, you are going to meet some new friends from the August group. Are you soooo excited? Mom can't wait and I am sure you can't either! The Christmas parties are starting this coming weekend and I am sure everyone will be telling us how great you are!
We love you so much! Miss you more then you know. We are sending you kisses and snuggles. Love you to the moon and back!
Mommy and Daddy
Our new tree! Soooo pretty!
Happy Birthday Daddy!
Our angel...
Mommy's letter she wrote you for the balloon event.
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