Day 2

Day 2: Identity

Day 2- Identity. Our 1st son's name is Frank IV. We choose that name because he is the IV generation in my husband's family. Now the generation of the name is now carried by an angel in heaven forever. The English origin and meaning is "honest". Frank was born on 8/19/12 weighing in at 6lbs 9oz and 19cm long. A few of Frank's features that I will remember is his cute button nose, his eyes- beautiful, dark, and alert, his full lips, and his precious little face that I still see all day long. We have passed his picture around to so many people. Frankie is our angel and I love having everyone who is close to us to have our sweet angel watching over them. We have very few pictures of our angel whose life was taken from us way too early and very unexpected but this will always be our favorite. We love you Frankie <3

Capture your grief project 2013

To all my friends and family,

October is pregnancy and infant loss month. I will be starting a project where I will post a new picture based on the topic every day during the month of October. I invite you all to enjoy this project with me (us).

Last year I attempted to do this project but just couldn't do it. I was not in the place emotionally that I am now. Our family will never be whole again after loosing our first child but where I am today is a much better place then where I was last year. I think I was able to do 5 days last year before I had to stop. This year it is my goal to make it a little bit longer. If I can make it for the month before my emotions get the best of me then I will be so very proud of myself.

I was thinking today about where I am now compared to where I was last year at this time. I was sad, angry at the hospital, and just felt broken. Now I have moved past my anger and I feel like each day I get a little bit better and better. I am pregnant with our rainbow baby, have a new team of health experts helping me through this to develop my trust again, and I am in a great place emotionally with all that we have endured. A year ago, October 1st was my first day back at work. I was dreading going back and facing everyone. I had to stop and think today how proud I was of myself for how far I have become.

My goal if I reach it all 31 days this year is to take my photographs and make a picture storybook so I can share it with our family, friends, and Frankie's future siblings.

I hope to have all the continued love and support during this process this month from everyone who helps me through this process each and every day. Love you all XOXO

Here is the link to the website for the capture your grief project 2013. Each day is a different topic.

http://carlymarieprojectheal.com/2013/09/capture-your-grief-october-2013.html

Katy, Frank, Frankie, and Sammy