I find myself asking this question at least once a day. How did we get so lucky to be in this place that we are today.
First, how did I get so lucky to have the world's best husband. I honest to goodness have the best man and best friend to go through this experience of life with me. Frank is AMAZING. He knows how to pick me up when I am down. Today for example I was feeling down on myself. Feeling pregnant, sore, tired, and just moody after a comment I received at work today. My confidence has been a big struggle for me since loosing Frankie. I can go from having no confidence by myself and as soon as Frank is here with me, I love the feeling I suddenly feel.
Next, how did I get so lucky to have the world's most beautiful son. Very few people had the chance to meet FPC IV but those of you that have met him can tell me I am not completely biased. Frankie is one cute boy. His little nose, long legs, cute feet, big brown alert eyes, his sweet face, and did I mention Frankie had the cutest nose EVER! I still envision his face at least 20 times a day. I have his picture on my Pandora bracelet I wear every day, I carry his picture in my purse, he watches over me in the car, Frankie is on my phone, and the same beautiful picture is everywhere in our home. I love turning and seeing my precious first boy every time I go to a different room. Frankie made me a mom. Frankie lets me know not to be sad because every time I look at him I smile. Frankie is about as handsome as a little boy can be. My precious angel Frankie, you are the best thing that ever happened to this family.
On to my next blessing, how did I get so lucky to be pregnant again. Being pregnant is a blessing. It is not something to ever take for granted. It is not something that comes easy for many people, myself included after many heartaches along this journey of growing our family. I am 22.5 weeks pregnant. How did this time pass and bring us to where we are today? I may complain about being sore, tired, and "normal" pregnancy feelings. I wouldn't give this up for the world to be here in this place, to be a mom of 2 beautiful boys. I am human, I am going to have days where I feel crap. Any woman in her mid 30's and pregnant is going to feel down on certain days. I still find myself being overjoyed to tears that I am here and at the end of this, I am going to have a beautiful baby to bring to our home. To our 2nd son Sam (Sammy), we are so happy to have you join our beautiful family! Mom, Dad, and Frankie can't wait for you to get here!
Next, how did I get so lucky to have this life I live. I have my own family, a beautiful home, a college education, a great job, and the resources to do everything I want to/need to do to fulfill my every want and need. To get where I am today was work and now I look back to only realize it is such a blessing. Frank and I work very hard to have a life that 8 years ago before we met that we would have only dreamed of.
Last, how did I get so lucky to have all the friends and family I have in my life. Each and every one of you inspire us to live our dreams. We will never give up because we have so many people in this world rooting us on. Our friends and family make so many sacrifices for us and we only hope one day that we will be able to return these sacrifices for others that are in need. To each and every one of you that has stayed by our side through this, we are grateful for you. Thank you for blessing us with your presence, thoughts, and prayers. We love you all.
As we are getting ready to put an end to our day, I will lay next to my husband while praying to our angel and feeling Sammy kicking me to sleep. I wouldn't give up a single part of my life for the world. I will then continue to ask myself, how did I get so lucky...
XOXO-
Katy
