I can't believe that so much time has gone by since I have last updated my blog. Thank you everyone for understanding. Life with a baby, working full time, and spending all my free time with my boys leaves me with a blog that hasn't been updated in months. I hope to get back on track after talking with Frank about how much I miss some of my own quiet time.
Now an update for everyone on what is going on here:
Sammy will be 7 months old now. He has 2 teeth, weighs 13.5 lbs, loves his mom and dad (aka he has stranger anxiety to the max). Sammy never stops smiling and laughing. Another new thing that Sammy does now that I can never get enough of- he loves to cuddle. As a newborn with his stomach and reflux issues, he was not a snuggly baby. Sammy loves to wear clothes from Gap Baby, ok fine I have an addiction to Gap Baby. He loves to be tickled, being sung to, and being outside.
For Frank and I- work, sleep, eat, and spending all of our time with Sammy. Family has always been very important to us and that is our primary focus. I couldn't be happier spending all of my weekend time with my boys.
August is a very tough month for Frank and I. My emotions are on constant edge the entire month because I miss Frankie. I am a strong believer in allowing someone who is grieving to take all the time they need while feeling every emotion that comes up. If I cry in the middle of the day as I look at Frankie's picture at my desk, I allow myself the time to work through that emotion. As I drive past the hospital where we lost Frankie, I allow myself to be angry at them. As I remember our 6 days together, I let the smile radiate my happiness for the day. I need to be a mom, a daughter, a wife, a friend, and a professional so I needed to think of a positive spin to get through this month. With the help of my wonderful husband, we developed #19 days. For the first 19 days of August, we are going to think of ways to honor Frankie. Whether it is a writing a thank you card, giving money to a good cause, shopping for ways to incorporate Frankie into our lives forever, or buying every little brother onesie I see. Every day has an assigned thing to do in honor of Frankie. This allows me to smile and be happy looking forward to helping others in honor the precious guardian angel we have watching over us. I invite everyone to look at our facebook page for Frankie Cirillo where we will be posting something August 1-August 19.
I will be the first to tell you that having Sammy here with us is not making this year any different. Sammy is not Frankie. Frankie will never be able to be replaced. Frankie will never be able to be forgotten. We are watching Sammy growing up every day and can't help but think how neat it would have been to see Frankie go through these developmental tasks. Frankie would be the best bigger brother a little boy can have. Now his job is even harder because he has to watch over Sammy from a distance instead of being here with us. I am constantly thinking about Frankie and I just hope we are making him proud.
We appreciate all of the patience, kindness, and sweet words that everyone is giving us this month. We wouldn't be the people we are today without each one of you.
Lots of love Frankie and I hope you are enjoying your month long celebration.
XOXO
